Okay, the guy that I have been with for the past two years, John, is officially mean.


We broke up.


I am probably going to drop out of highschool.


I want to shoot my brains out.


I'm ready to move as far away from here as possible.


UGH! Anyways I don't see John and I getting back together for a really REALLY long time. I'm really taking it hard. When I get sad, he doesn't even try to cheer me up like he used to and he changes the subject.

I'm not trying to be like some nerdy whine bag, but this is getting rediculous! It's just one fucking thing after the other with me and my damn bad luck... I'm trying so hard not to go back to being dependant on drugs.

I think I just might run away. I'm running out of ideas.

If anyone has any good advice, please share. Heh, I doubt anyone really cares (or even looks at my stuff) but this is kind of a big deal to me.

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